Thursday, December 21, 2006

The Exact Chronology Of Events Leading Up To My Enlightenment

6:45AM: I sit down for meditation.

7:30AM: I open my eyes and look at the clock. Wow, 45 minutes. There was a time when I couldn't meditate for 10 minutes continuously. Look at me now! 45 minutes! I am awesome. And so wise.

I also feel rested, at peace and very, very still inside. I am hyper-aware of everything, and yet, there is not a bit of restlessness in me.

8:00AM: I drive to work and notice an SUV doing about 30mph in the fast lane. I wait patiently. I don't have to honk anymore. Peace, love, stillness.

8:01AM: The SUV driver is talking on the cellphone.

8:01:01: It's easy to forgive. The driver must be dealing with some really important issue on the phone. That's how easy it is to let go of the anger.

8:01:03: "Oh shit"

8:01:04: I honk.

8:01:08: The SUV refuses to clear the lane.

8:01:10: "Fuck you, you globe-warming, ecological terrorist shithead, get out of the fast lane NOW". That not-so-rare bird - Flippera Avis - is sighted once again on the asphalt.

8:01:19: I take a deep breath. Tomorrow, I meditate for 90 minutes.

6 comments:

Tabula Rasa said...

6:45 am. still jet lagged, eh?

Vi said...

Isn't meditation productive? :D

Ph said...

'tis the season to be jolly. Tra la la la la la la la.

wildflower seed said...

Some lessons I have learned :

1) Whatever I resist will persist.

2) Meditation is much more productive when I sit at night just before going to bed. Typically, I will not dream, the quality of sleep is orders of magnitude improved, and 5-6 hours is enough to feel adequately rested.

km said...

TR: Oh, that explains my two lunches a day.

WFS: Sigh. The gap between just knowing something and really knowing something....for some reason, I find it really hard to meditate at night.

vi and ph: Just what I needed. More sarcasm :D

wildflower seed said...

Oh, I struggle too.